Song - Howl's Curse

Go and catch a falling star,
Get with child a mandrake root,
Tell me where all past years are,
Or who cleft the devil's foot,
Teach me to hear mermaids singing,
Or to keep off envy's stinging,
And find
What wind
Serves to advance an honest mind.

If thou be'st born to strange sights,
Things invisible to see,
Ride ten thousand days and nights,
Till age snow white hairs on thee,
Thou, when thou return'st, wilt tell me,
All strange wonders that befell thee,
And swear,
No where
Lives a woman true and fair.

- John Donne

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Hawthorne's Leaving

The double doors wrought with iron at the far end of the dimly-lit room seemed larger, more foreboding to Hawthorne tonight. How many times had he come here, jut to glance longingly at this gateway to his freedom? Yet he felt like something was amiss, despite that this was the very night of his wildest dreams; dreams of escape from this horrible place.

Slowly, Hawthorne walked on, the sound of his pattering footsteps echoing slightly in the still night. Those double doors were right in front of him now. Every hair in his skin was prickling up, as he felt the slow blasts of magic emanating from the doors. Shivering with fear and excitement, he reached out his right arm and gripped the right door handle with trembling fingers. He did not push it down.

Hawthorne's mind grew numb with growing unease; everything felt so wrong that he couldn't even place a thought on what he was doing. He could hear himself breathing in the eerie silence, feel his heart thrumming like the wind somewhere in his chest. He blinked quickly and tried to focus his mind better.

Nearly eleven years I've waited for this, he told himself, memories of his impatience and pain of waiting rushing back into his mind. He could even hear his old teacher's advice playing in his head; the very last bit of solid advice.

Hawthorne knew what he was supposed to do, and had wanted to do so badly. But why did he feel so uneasy? How was it even possible that he was actually hesitating to leave?! He had no love whatsoever for this place.

His other arm extended halfway into the air towards the other handle.

"Farewell, boy," a quiet but familiar voice said.

Hawthorne's blood turned to ice. He swung his head round towards the source of the voice.

Sophie was leaning against the wall in a dark corner to the right of him. Her red-brown hair hung down like a dark curtain, obscuring half her face from the side. Hawthorne could see only her right eye, glittering blue-green and staring straight ahead into the darkness.

His insides writhed. Sophie turned her face slightly towards him, a smile tugging at the corners of her lips. Hawthorne couldn't help noticing that she looked unnaturally cheery. Her eyes, however bright, seemed to be guarding some other emotion inside. He narrowed his eyebrows at her suspiciously.

The moment seemed to last forever. As he tried to probe into whatever was stirring inside Sophie, and she in turn did not cease to cover it, a spark of understanding coursed between them both. They had never felt so strange. Nothing needed to be said in this abstractness.

Finally Hawthorne, still glaring warily at her sideways, made the tiniest fraction of a nod. Then he pushed down the door handles and pulled the double doors open with a resounding creak and clang. Taking one last deep breath, he disappeared through the double doors into the dark, unknown space beyond.

The doors sealed themselves again, closing the way back. It knew Hawthorne Blacklight's presence was now forever gone from this place.

Silence followed. Sophie's smile and guarded eyes slipped away. She couldn't help feeling something shattering into a million fragments inside her empty chest.

我们就像枫叶

写这个给我的人, 你还记得吗? XD



在树上时我们都在一起遥望高处, 一起嘲笑人们的傻。

落叶后, 再也没人理我们了, 但我们仍然在一起, 一起让人们在我们身上踩过, 但我们仍在一起。

重点是我们都在有福同享, 有难同担。

朋友永远是我们的财产, 没了朋友什么都没了, 就等于我们没有彼此, 那全部都会毁了。




- 徐文慧


Friday, January 21, 2011

My Birthday

Haha I know it's a bit late :)
But I was busy. So here it is.

A SUPER-BIG THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO MADE 17th JAN A GREAT DAY FOR ME!!!!! XD

First, I'd like to thank my family. I love you all so much for caring so much about me :)
Daddy, Mummy, Koko and Xuan Xuan.
Second, I think I still remember the right order of all the friends who wished me. Haha.

1. Xiao Wei! (SMS)
2. Yien Wei (In the car)
3. Ming Torng (From the top floor yelling down)
4. Florence (Thanks, though I don't really know you that well! :P)
5. Mae Shun (Who came to my class to wish me! :D)
6. Dorothy (Who pretended not to know it was my birthday and kept saying I was old after.)
7. Lim Tong (Who passed by my class and mouthed 'Happy Birthday'!)
8. Shue Ting (Aww you're so cute! XD)
9. Zhi Ning (So cute too!)
10. Qian Yi (Big smile! Haha)
11. Wen Hui (HORR so late wish me! XDXD)
12. Minni and Patricia?? (Don't know which first, we were busy shaking hands like crazy people!)
13. Yuet Yan (Who had to wait for me to finish shaking hands with the other 2 siao pos XD)
14. CHEOK Wenhui (From the next canteen table!)
15. Su Lene (By molesting me and looking at me so "yellow-ly"!!! XDXDXD)
16. Oops almost forgot Lynette! (She should be in front haha! Crazy prefect! So chubi!!!)
17. Chia Yee (She should be somewhere in front too - sorry! ^^)
18. Sze En (Chicky Chicckkkkkyyyyyyyyyyy!)
19. Jing Ling (Thank you!)
20. Sze Er (At the corridor! XD)
21. Jing Yuan (Next to Sze Er!)
22. Yun Hun (At maths tuition...hmph she old liao! Thought my birthday was on the 16th! And kept putting her leg on my leg. HORR! Thanks a lot! XD)
23. Hui Xuan (At Winnie Yap's :D)
24. Amanda (Who was absent and SMSed me to tell me that I'm old! =.= Haha since you said that then I get to bully you more now!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAA!!!)
25. Wei Leen (In class! Sorry you should be more in front as well! XP Thx for the wish!!!)

And lots more on Facebook! Sorry if I missed out anyone! X) Thank you ALL!

P.S. Thanks to Xiao Wei for the Metoo!!! AARGH I loveeee it!!! So cute man :3




Friday, January 14, 2011

奇怪的感觉

有没有想过我们这个世界是从哪里来的?

人相信世界是神开始的。 我们所知道,拥有的一切, 都是神送给我们的。

但如果再想得更远: 神从哪里来? 难道神是这样没理由就跳出来了吗? 而创造神的那个力量,又是从哪里来的啊? 再之前呢? 我唯一想象得出的只是一大片空洞的黑暗。 但黑暗多抽象也必定有个来源, 那来源又是什么?

其实这证明了世上没有开始, 也没有结尾。




菊花台

你 的泪光 柔弱中带伤
惨白的月弯弯 勾住过往
夜 太漫长 凝结成了霜
是谁在阁楼上 冰冷的绝望

雨 轻轻弹 朱红色的窗
我一生在纸上 被风吹乱
梦 在远方 化成一缕香
随风飘散 你的模样

菊花残 满地伤 你的笑容已泛黄
花落人断肠 我心事静静躺

北风乱 夜未央 你的影子剪不断
徒留我孤单 在湖面 成双

花 已向晚 飘落了灿烂
凋谢的世道上 命运不堪
愁 莫渡江 秋心拆两半
怕你上不了岸 一辈子摇晃

谁 的江山 马蹄声狂乱
我一身的戎装 呼啸沧桑
天 微微亮 你轻声地叹
一夜惆怅 如此委婉

菊花残 满地伤 你的笑容已泛黄
花落人断肠 我心事静静躺

北风乱 夜未央 你的影子剪不断
徒留我孤单 在湖面 成双

Saturday, January 8, 2011

I feel so much like Hawthorne today - angry and rebellious in a strange way. Why must I always be myself? So I wrote this to vent my feelings. And it turned out pretty good. I like it a lot.


I long to flee
From the thoughts that bind me
Why should I stay myself?
What good to remain scorned?
My heart does not allow to be pushed aside
It yearns to soar
And doubt all who do not believe
Someday through my stubborn pride
I will show and not show or I die
Prove before my time, rebel against the winds!
But keep hidden the pain that lingers
Behind two hostile eyes.


- Hawthorne Blacklight









Which is normal: Laughing with your eyes open or closed? XD